Teenage Dreams

What was it?? I asked him as i turned around.  I could see a knife with it's handle in his hand and the sharp edge nowhere to be seen. The most i could see of the knife was it was insterted in a red spot with it's sharp edge and suddenly u felt the world disapper and i fainted as he stabbed me again with the same knife on the same spot. I was helpless as it had been like one of the situatuions like the assasination of Julieus Ceaser where he was stabbed by his own people,or i could say friends.. The situation here was not different.I could see the person whom i called my best friend stabbing me till death... it was a horrbile feelinh and the only good thing about the scenario was that it was a dream.. i woke up to find myself in sweat. My hearbeat was resonation with the sound from the wall clock which was now way louder than it ever could've been. I Thanked god for it just being a dream when i was unawrae that my life would witness a similar event. :(

And the last farewell.. Sheduled to be on March 19 2016 and i suddenly started to question my plans on attending or not the ceremony. It's actually a Get Together. But if i had to get her.. i had to stay away from her as far as possible.. i don't want a misunderstanding be created due to the friendship on relationship. And ugh, trust me today i got it, in this low state of my life when three mood breakers are attacking at a time( Coordinator strikes again, she has been off for a time and last night i had bad(suicidal)thoughts) which i told no one. But 1out of the total n number of people turned up to my aid.. All others were making fun up the situation and it was beyond control... i hated it.. but i had to prove.. and despited i had a fight with "A" ((that's her initial, i ain't calling her Sw31 no more)) i called her up. She was from a distant place but yet she had known bout my problem. How?? I didn't cared.. Neither i had to .... i just write, thinking