The guy

So this is about that guy, the guy whose passwords are nothing more from the value of pi to the speed of light. He is living his life a life beyond which lies a vast ocean whose existance is unknown to him. He don't know what else could he had achieved, what else could he have done because everything he's been through is under his reach, he thinks he's accomplished everything, each and every step of success, the limit of success  he defines is what he has but yet in a different perspective he's the poorest of all, he's cold and aloof, as the saying goes "If you want to go fast, go alone but if you want to go far, go together." He was always in a hurry, he never knew what he thought was a finish line was just the end of chapter 1. The end of the chapter, which in the new story was meaning less, it felt like a new world for him, a world of isolation, separation and and other word that could possbily describe   lonliness. all the synonyms of lonliness was in his life now, Now he realsied he was too fast that he needs to wait for others,so that he could go together and go far.. he has the motivation to go far but he's tired. the journey he's covered with his full pace has left his drained of all his energy ,he needs  rejuvination, he needs a hand right now which would drag him out of the lonely shadows and walk with him, he needs someone who he could trust to life,one who would love him and care him. He needs a soul which could identify his potentials, he is waiting, he's still waiting for that person to come in his life. Every passing stranger in his life he sees and thinks" might this person be the one, yet something stops him." He can't make sure if he's true because he's afraid of failure, he's afraid of falling down, he fears getting beaten, he fears the shadow he's living in  that it might get even darker because everything he's been through till now had never prepared him for anything like this. he still wants that person to come to his life and drive him out of his decent to darkness and his exposure beyond the  limits of his tolerence to public nudity.he is bare, and he don't want people to accept him as it, he wants clothes, he wants to be with the one who would understand him, he wants to be with the one with whom he could be even in those times when he feels like being alone.He wants to be with that person who knows when to treat him the way she should, the way he needs to be treated.

He wants to go far, he has already tasted the journey of speed, the position he's in he's earned it with many sleepless nights, broken expectations, wet pillows soaked in tears of being alone and self-meditation on the ways to avoid the distraction in this long journey. He is fast, now for far he needs her. He knows that. He knows what he need, yet he can't say it out loud, his heart skips a beat when he hears her name, yet the heart can't supply enough blood to push his voice out through his mouth to confess it, his brain gets tangled in the web of conscious moral, legal, social and most importantly loveable thougths before speaking to her and always 3>1 the loveable part is supressed and he's always alone, he can't ask to go toghether although he knows they're going to the same direction, he knows the journey is same, the same ups and downs are on their way to sucees yet he fears, he fears rejection and failure. He is tangled now, he's tangled in a war of consice between his heart and brain over why this particular human being, why this? is it just a rush of adrenalin or is this what it had to be? Is it some crazy teenage desire or will it last long? How far could we go? One chapter?
This part scares him the most, he'd been alone over a whole chapter and part 2 seems no different till now but if he tries going far with this person and the farthest he could go if becomes a beginning of a new chapter he couldn't bear it. He knows he's confused, he knows his thoughts are going on random, he knows it's 12:00 am and he needs some sleep, he knows he has college tomorrow, he know's he's kissed this girl. yeah! It has happened but she thought it was a mistake, next reason for him why he's scared.

He"s scared to death.. he has far to go and yet lot to live for...